it's like that.

Driving stick shift while eating  a peanut butter sandwich, loaded with too much peanut butter, while also drinking coffee will cause consternation.

It causes me to drop peanut butter on the seat.
It causes me to spill coffee on my lap.
It makes me feel pulled from a machine like frozen yogurt in flavors people don’t like.

I can complain a lot about what is not present in the moment. How things used to be at a certain time. I think this is like eating a sandwich with too much peanut butter, drinking coffee, while also driving stick shift.

notes to the dead.


Happy with how this prototype is coming along. My idea is to have many, many, many replicas of my grandfather's head in these house-like structures (only the nose visible from the side) filling a room. The tubes have solenoids that tap on the head in morse code, reading my most recent emails and passing them along. It's been nice figuring out the tech on these in a way that the components are all minimal and small: the whole thing is built with custom shift register shields attached to custom mosfet arrays, all operated from some code on a raspberry pi zero. 

I like the idea, too, that the tapping is almost like a measurement device for memories of a person that is no longer here. Sort of like shouting into caverns, or something like that. When you think about it, conversation with words is just tapping the inside of someone's ear with a soundwave and gauging their response.

Skill set

I can now take pillows out of their cases while I sleep. I'm deciding to call it a new skill set in order to offset the annoyance of it all. 

love in the time of covid


I'm not so much about dumping my personal life IN THIS way on these pages; so up front and simple, no meandering thoughts -- and asides (with the possible parentheticals recalling how pictures like this appear in dreams on old refrigerators), but with all the isolation and heaviness that seems to have lifted a bit recently, I can holler at a beautiful, intelligent woman and say "we can make it through anything". And we can look out at the world and smile and invite anyone to join us in moving forward.